When Growth Feels Like a Hamster Wheel
Another day of brain dumping—I need to clear my head somewhere so I can stay sane and keep moving forward. I’m still not at the execution stage yet, but at least I’m putting my ideas down. This week went mostly as planned: my mind feels a bit lighter, I’m no longer in that depressive state, and my body feels more energetic thanks to Pilates and treadmill sessions. I skipped spinning this week since Jonathan’s class was fully booked and he wasn’t around on Saturday. So instead, I did three Pilates classes and one treadmill session. I was supposed to go to spinning today, but I canceled because my body and feet were aching. The good news is I feel much better now—sometimes it’s okay to just let the body rest.
On the work front, I’m at a stage where I feel the need to upskill. I’ve been considering the FMVA course, but I’m not sure if I really need it since I already have a Bachelor’s in Professional Accounting and several years of full-time experience. I think I just need more time to decide which path to take. My worry is that I might not stick with it—I tend to get bored and lose focus, and I don’t want to start something only to leave it unfinished, especially in front of my CFO. Still, my goal is to move up to higher salary within the next 1–2 years.
At the same time, I’m curious about entrepreneurship—something I’ve been talking about for a while. Some people say completing the FMVA could help me become a business partner, but according to others (like on Reddit), that’s not really the case since it’s not a globally recognized credential. So I’m torn—do I invest my time and money in FMVA, or focus on exploring my entrepreneurial side?
The challenge is, even though I want to dive into entrepreneurship, I don’t know where or how to start. Feels like I’m just running in circles on a hamster wheel.
But here’s the thing—I realized I don’t need to choose one giant path right now. Instead, I can treat both career growth and entrepreneurship as experiments:
For health, I’ll keep a steady rhythm of 2–3 workouts a week (Pilates + cardio) without overcommitting. That way, I maintain energy without burning out.
For work, instead of jumping straight into FMVA, I can focus on 1–2 short skills that tie directly to my FY26 goals—like Power BI, Copilot for Finance, or a short leadership course. These are practical, fast wins that still build credibility.
For entrepreneurship, I don’t have to wait for a “perfect big idea.” I can start with a mini side experiment—maybe a blog, digital product, or small coaching/consulting project—something I can test in a weekend. Low pressure, but real-world experience.
I think this approach takes the weight off. I’m no longer choosing between FMVA or entrepreneurship, between stability or risk. I’m experimenting in both directions, collecting data, and letting the results guide me.
For now, the focus is simple: move my body, sharpen one skill at work, and test one entrepreneurial idea. Step by step.
Closing thought: Maybe the answer isn’t about finding “the one right path” but about learning, experimenting, and growing along the way. As long as I keep moving—physically, mentally, and professionally—I know I’m not stuck. I’m building momentum, and that’s what will carry me forward.
